31. How I became an addict.
Slowly I ignored my family, I alienated my friends. I showed up late for appointments. I was hungover all the time. I couldn’t see the forest from the trees. What was ‘once in a while’, became normal for me. The frog in the boiling water thought this is how things would always be.
Rounding down hundreds of times
Across a hundred scenarios, led me to hit rock bottom. No one ever wonders around and finds themselves on top of Mount Everest. I didn’t become an addict overnight. It was small tiny decisions adding up over time.
How I became an addict is by death by a thousand cuts. Slowly ignoring my family, showing up late. I was hungover all the time. I couldn’t see the forest from the trees. Not being in control became normal. Slowly boiling water was how things always be.
Sobriety is a lifetime adventure
It’s made up of living a life of gratitude first. In the beginning this is minute to minute. I celebrate individual days, and weeks. I never thought I’d achieve 30 days clean & sober. What was impossible, is now my daily struggle.
If life seems impossible, I don’t stress about what I can’t control. Tonight I’ll go to bed sober. and tomorrow I will wake up sober.
Gratitude of the day: Today I will celebrate what I can influence. I focus on the 6 inches in front of my face. I don’t stress about being overwhelmed.
Action of the day: I will review my gratitude list. I will go to bed sober.