29. Self Doubt Sabotaged me!
I didn’t see any benefit to risk anything, so I never achieved anything. I took the ‘easy way’ out. I became lazy at living life. Not changing this pattern is what drove me to hit rock bottom.
I didn’t risk anything.
I’m the absolute worst at getting inside my own head. If I let my addiction run rampant, with my ego left unchecked, my world fills with doubt. My alcoholic brain turns any situation into a negative one. Without a real sense of belonging.
By taking the easy way out, I never achieved anything. I became lazy at living life. Not changing this pattern is what drove me to hit rock bottom.
In recovery, I found my Higher Power. I made ‘recovery friends’, I have a home group. I share frequently at meetings, I show up, and contribute to my program. Through sharing my story, by helping others, I started to believe I belonged somewhere,
I belong here.
Gratitude of the day: It’s easier to believe in yourself when someone else believes in you first. Thank You.
Action of the day: Today I’m going to celebrate taking healthy risks by making a list of my sober accomplishments. I’ll share that list with a ‘sober friend’.