27. Loving who I am
Tearing down this wall took forever, but it was worth it to feel trusted again. Breaking free from this self-driven ego prison let’s me build a fulfilling life. Yes I’m outside of my comfort zone, but I found something bigger than my ego and started accepting it.
I hid my addiction from everyone
In the heat of my addiction I felt I could not be trusted. It caused me to not think very much of myself. I treated my body, mind, and soul poorly. I took advantage of my relationships, slowly I disappointed everyone around me. My ego conditioned me to not trust others or trust myself. Ego is codeword for fear.
Growing to love who I am, where I am, and where I’m going is essential to recovery. Caring for myself. finding my spirit. Trust others and believing I can be trusted.
Tearing down the walls I built
Was worth it to feel trusted again. Breaking free from this self-driven ego prison let’s me build a fulfilling life. Finding something bigger than my ego means living outside my comfort zone. None of this was possible without letting trust in, and giving trust away.
Gratitude of the day: Today I’m thankful that my relationships are build on a foundation of trust. What must last forever will take as long to build.
Action of the day: I celebrate today because thanks to my recovery, I am trustworthy.
